Today was another lazy day. I feel so discouraged. What I want most in life is be an energetic, fun mother, and that goal feels so out of reach on days like today. I let my achy back and belly dictate the day, most of which I spent in bed.
On the upside, Abe had a great day at work. He came home full of ideas and inspiration, and it is obvious he has found his passion. On our evening walk, we talked a lot about the book I just read, Where You Go Is Not Who You’ll Be. Everything I read resonated with Abe. He feels certain that if he had gone to BYU instead of UPenn, he would be much more ahead both financially and in terms of his career…but I was grateful when he turned to me and said, “God bless the broken road that led me to youuuuuu!” I’m so glad for such a loving husband, especially on days like today when I feel like I don’t measure up in pretty much every category.
A huge part of my discouragement is weight gain. Even though I have exercised vigorously six days a week for almost a month (and regularly before that), I still wake up larger every day than I was the day before. I know it’s because I have a food and sugar problem, but in the moment that the craving hits, it’s soooo hard to not give in. Yesterday I baked a peach pie, so this was today’s culprit. Also, Abe had never eaten one. Isn’t that crazy? Utah is peach country central!Thank goodness the girls played imagination for half the day. They went through so many imaginary games I couldn’t keep track, but one that lasted several hours was “kitty.” Mary was a kitty that Lydia threw food at. This was a great game because Lydia LOVES cats and was so sweet to Mary-in-cat-form. Mary loved being treated so nicely, and she happily meowed and crawled around for hours pretending to be a cat.I parented from bed today. Lydia visited me and graced me with smiles I didn’t deserve.Abe gave me a new Macbook Pro for my birthday! It came today. I am typing from it now. I have so many plans for this thing.
