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<\/p>\nOn Tuesday I spent the morning playing and reading to Ammon and Clarissa. I love those little humans so much. It was fun to dance with them, chase them, play hide and seek, and read until my throat felt dry and tickly. Even though I felt exhausted by 11am and put Clarissa down for her nap early because I just couldn’t do more, I felt full.<\/p>\n
I also spent a lot of energy on Facebook, trying to summon up all of the love and forgiveness my heart is capable of in order to respond to a post that felt very hurtful to me. It came from someone I love and respect, so that made it hard. But I kept returning to my phone over and over and over to analyze my feelings, follow the threads, and type out thoughts. I think the thread was very loving and respectful, and it ended up bringing together some sisters from my mission. It’s always great to be in touch with that crowd.<\/p>\n
Lydia screamed for an hour during harp practice, but I was so proud of myself. I kept repeating to myself that the only thing that matters is love, and I didn’t scream back!!! I was dangerously quiet and at times obviously upset, but this new understanding of love worked to help keep me from screaming. I am grateful for the baby steps of progress. They give me hope that I can actually grow and someday, change.<\/p>\n
In the evening Abe took the girls around the neighborhood in the pouring rain to canvas for their upcoming school fun run. I stayed home, read Mary Oliver essays, and typed away on my book. I don’t think I’ll use a word of what I’ve written so far in the actual book, but you’ve got to start somewhere.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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