I pushed myself way too hard yesterday, and I woke up feeling completely gutted emotionally, and mentally. Things have been particularly hard with my faith as well. Never in my life have I felt more angst, strain, and discouragement around my participation in my church and my faith in God and belief in the afterlife. I think it was just me not feeling well combining with the unraveling of my faith (a necessary step before rebuilding), but mentally, emotionally, spiritually, it was a TOUGH day.
Thank goodness it was Saturday. I was able to throw myself into organizing the garage. It’s like a giant game of tetris and I’m obsessed with organizing and it always makes me happy. I was also able to be around Lily, Georgia and the children which is so nourishing to me.
Lily and I both had our hearts melted when we saw the below note from Mary left for Lily in the bathroom:
Also Lydia wrote a play that we all acted out about two friends who persisted in their friendship despite one of the children’s parents initially disagreeing with the friendship.
Then we watched the newest Maleficent, and cleaned. The movie was outstanding.
After 6:00, Lexi came over. She is the nanny we are going to hire to watch our kids during Bora Bora, and she came over to do a trial run.
Lily and I took the opportunity to have a date night with Steve and Blair at one of our favorite restaurants, Good Move Cafe. We played Coup, one of our go-to games. I was not feeling well at all, actually depressed from fatigue, stress, and spiritual questions and doubts. I went to the restroom to try to pull myself together to enjoy the evening. And enjoy the evening I did. By the end, I was feeling much better. Steve and Blair were so fun to talk to, and Lily was very sweet to me on the ride home saying how much she loves me. I was not as expressive due to my state of my, but man I hope that woman knows that she is my world and my song 🙂
We came back a perfectly clean home and a good report from Lexi. I’m feeling very good about her watching the kids while we are in Bora Bora.