On Monday I tried out Ketamine. It was really expensive but I have been curious. Sadly, I didn’t really get much out of the session other than a sensation of consciousness apart from self–and honestly, that was really cool. Also every time I thought about Abe while on Ketamine my body did this automatic thing where I breathed deeply and felt full of peace and light. It was not a conscious response but a bodily response that I felt like I was observing outside myself. Abe is my safe and happy place.
But afterward I threw up three times and spent three hours completely unable to do anything because of the nausea. After I felt better, I heated up the lamb and made some polenta for dinner. Abe took the kids to Sundance to get ski passes while I recovered, and since I took so long recovering we ate dinner really late. But it was yummy! And Lydia got to seed a pomegranate, which was something she’d been wanting to do ever since we read The Pomegranate Witch.
The only picture I have from this day is one the kids must have taken of themselves in the car. I just found it and think it’s pretty cute.
