One of the things that our trip blessed me with was a deepened longing and appreciation for my children. I was so worn out before leaving that I know I was not appreciating them or engaging with them in the way that such magically wonderful children deserve. I love every second on Bora Bora, but I also daydreamed of my reunion with the children.
Monday was a very long day. Our overnight 8-hour flight was very hard to sleep on. I drifted in and out of sleep for almost all of it. In my semi-dream state, I had a very interesting experience. In my semi-dream state, I felt a lot of my demons and fears fill my head until I felt complete darkness and despair. I then felt the idea to be open to the idea that help and light could come, even in unexpected places, and that whereas in the past help often came from relying on what I knew, in this new phase of life, I needed to be open to the unknown, unexpected, and new for salvation. I also at one point cuddled up next to Lily and felt my demons dissipate and I understood that she is a key source of light in my life, and a powerful force for dispelling darkness. By the end of my rest, I felt some life, and light and hope. It was all a very interesting and meaningful journey.
In L.A., we had a long layover. Then we had a short-flight home and my dad and Suzanne picked us up. It was so nice to see them. They were so loving and cheerful, and sweet. It was so wonderful to be received back into Utah by them.
Lily and I got crown-burger and then drove home. When we got home, all the kids were in bed, but it was so wonderful to see Georgia who is such a love in our lives. Lily and I sneaked up to the girls room to see if by chance they were still awake and they weren’t, but I sneaked a kiss for each of them. It was so nice to see our children again.
It was so good to be home. I also grabbed this photo to show just how bad my sunburn really was:
