Sunday was Mother’s Day. Honestly, we are thinking of abolishing this day in the Darais family. It is just not a great day for us. Last Mother’s Day was wonderful but honestly, there were really hard aspects to it too. I can’t remember how I blogged about it, but I probably didn’t mention the painful parts because they felt too personal. But there was pain last Mother’s Day for Abe and me, and this Mother’s Day was probably the worst one yet.
It started great though! I went to my meditation and came out feeling very peaceful and happy. Also, my FAVORITE part of the day was waking up to all the cards the girls made me. They were all so sweet and I felt so loved and full of love for my beautiful kids. I am so grateful to be their mom.
But it basically went downhill from there. Abe had a nervous breakdown because of my decision to leave the church. We spent the whole day talking through feelings. At one point I took this picture after Clarissa woke up from the nap. It’s sad but also sweet to see them together:
After I fell asleep for the night, Abe woke me up because he was feeling upset again. At that point, I was not very nice and stopped trying to be understanding. It was, um, not a great end to this Mother’s Day. I am pretty much over this holiday and don’t want to celebrate it again. Growing up I never liked Thanksgiving because my dad would always have some sort of a blow up (looking back I realize he was stressed), and now I really feel allergic to Mother’s Day. Can we just abolish it already?