From Darkness to Light

This morning I woke up and told Lily that I was scared and sad.  My faith, my job, my fatigue (with recent travel) and the overall demands of life had just been wearing me out and I just felt like I could barely face the day, let alone life.

Of course, Lily was sweet, loving and affirming. I had a good prayer and read in Ephesians which helped prepare me spiritually for the day and then I took the kids to school and met Lily at her physical therapist so she could take over with the kids so I could go to work.

At work, I started out a bit weary, but as the day went on, I got some wind in my sails.  I connected with a colleague I really care about who is leaving, and made major headway on a presentation I’m preparing for a bank.  I also got some good news from one of my reps and we closed a small deal.  Also, I played spikeball with my team (great team-building) and before that even stole some time for weights. I also had a lighter than normal schedule so the day just didn’t feel that hard. I also made 25 prospecting calls. Things seem to be going better at work, and on a great trajectory.  Only two more weeks in a difficult Q3, but my team has been trending in a good direction, and next quarter my team is smaller, and I’ll have a pod lead, and our pipeline is very very good. There is a lot I can be excited about as I power through this last difficult 2.5 weeks.

Today I know that Lily went to the library, worked out on our new Nordic Track Exercise bike (which we love).

After work, I went to the appointment at Mary’s eye therapy. I love going because I feel involved, and I get to observe the exercises they do with her and get tips about how I should be doing them at home.  Kaylie was the person that worked with Mary today and she said that Mary is so cute and that the different workers love when it is their turn to work with her.  I’m kindof obsessed about fixing Mary’s eyes. She has a lazy-eye problem. Her left I will check out and shut off when she is looking at things that are not close up, because her double-vision is bad (from her eyes not working together) and her brain just shuts off her left eye to not have to deal with the double vision. I feel so blessed that we have a doctor that can help her with therapy, and I want her to grow up to have her eyes as normal as possible so I have felt very invested in the process. I’m so grateful for the work Lily and Georgia have also contributed to getting her exercises done at home. Kaylie was so cheerful at the session that that was also a pick-me-up.

At home things just got better and better.  I did piano practice with Mary and she was charming even if focus was difficult at times. I need to also mention here that Mary has been a complete gem recently. We’ve been marveling about how sweet and helpful, and cute and adorable she seems to be ALL THE TIME. A year ago she was having a harder emotional time, I think with being the youngest in her class and struggling to make friends and stay caught up in school. But she’s repeating 1st grade and she’s loving it and finding a lot of confidence and happiness. Maybe that is helping her be so over the top sweet at home?

There was one particularly cute anecdote tonight. We looked everywhere for her math book because Georgia was going to help her with her math homework. After much looking, it finally dawned on Mary that she left it on the cinder-block wall at the edge of our property. She went and grabbed it, and came back and energetically stated, “See dad, here’s the whole deal, I came home, wanted to ride my scooter, set the book on the fence, then went to the backyard to pick lavender without knowing that I put it on the fence, then went inside for dinner, and forgot all about it, but now we found it, so see dad, we just needed to think about it.” It’s hard to explain how cute she was. It was mostly the sweet excited, knowing tone she used. I love her 🙂

After piano, I threw Clarissa and Ammon on the couch over and over which they loved. Dinner also made me happy because we ate so many things that we grew in the garden. We had corn (it turned out decent this year!) and the salad had delicious tomatoes, cucumbers and peppers all from the garden. The garden is my baby, and I love to each fresh vegetables, so dinner was very happy.

After dinner, I cleaned up while Lily did the night routine with the kids. I did scriptures with the kids, wrote in my Jesus journal and now I’m blogging with Lily, my best friend, feeling like it was actually a really good day. I am so blessed 🙂